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[Jul 23rd, 2005 @ 12:10 ] |
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well i guess this is why i wanted lj back. no one reads this shit but it's good to let it out anyway i guess. uh yeah, quitting my job on wednesday because i really need more money. it sucks because people are always saying and doing things that make me feel horrible about leaving, but i have to. i didn't work my ass off and miss summerschool by a half a second to have a miserable summer. so yeah, idk. play rehearsal is fun but it's killing me. i'm so freaking exhausted i feel like this summer is worse than the school year.
people are really weird. that's all i have to say. i don't understand how people can change so much over so little time. infact i really just dislike people in general. why does everyone have to be so fucking random and opinionated and judgemental and closeminded. i hate the way i always feel like everyone's judging me...it sucks. yeah people i'm uncomfortable about my weight get over it im not saying im obeise im just not happy with myself right now if people could be understanding rather than right off the bat thinking im one of those jappy annorexic girls that think they're obeise, that would be wonderful.
really dunno who my friends are anymore. screw it. i really don't want friends. friends aren't even friends anymore. apparently friends nower days are like a trend? or that could possibly just be a select few. but whatever. honestly, i have my cousins, i have fun hanging out with them, i have a FEW friends that i love other than that, and the rest are just there.
apparently i did something? maybe someone should let me know what instead of being skitzofrenic and rude? and that's NOT just to one person. bye.
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[Jul 15th, 2005 @ 4:49 ] |
deleting my lj since no one comments anyway!!
...fucking hate you all.
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[May 6th, 2005 @ 5:08 ] |
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ok everything's better now kthx bye.
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[May 2nd, 2005 @ 11:17 ] |
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today i realized a few things:
1) i'm fucking stupid
2) the only people i know that i can truly trust no matter what and feel comfortable telling anything on earth to are my cousins.
3) my chorus teacher hates me with a burning passion
4) so do some others
5) i seriously didn't mean to hurt anyone today because like 500 people all of a sudden exploded on me. whatever i did i'm truly sorry.
it's weird how things can be so good one second and fucking SUCK the next. ugh.
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[Apr 29th, 2005 @ 11:25 ] |
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OK once again deleted all my entries cause something was wrong with them. ughugh.
yeah so, uh, for everyone who added those other journals forget it because i'm using this one again for good.
This vacation = alright. I'd have to say that the most eventful night i've had was last night. Crilley's house...quite awkward seeing Kathleen after like 9 years but this time at her house for her brother & not her, and same at stoecker's the night before that, but it's all good. Dan is my hero I think. He pretty much told Crilley's mom that he was gonna "RAPE SOME ASSSSS" considering she was right infront of him when he screamed it in his niggaz voice. Twas fun. OH YEAH. and i'm no longer single :].
But i am however in a deprivation. I miss my god damn cousins. I honestly never realized how much my life revolves around them considering i'd be home 1/4 the amount of time i'm home now if they were here. cause we pretty much hang out every day. and it's pretty sad.
But yeah, that's pretty much it. Besides the rainstorm event though. that was pretty fun. me, ryan, crilley, naveh, dan, herman, jeremy, dave & steve (i think that's it) walked around in the pouring rain, got pizza, hung out under the trainstation like the bad ass delinquents that we are, and then i went home. That's the only time i've ever walked around in the rain, because well who looks attractive when they walk around in the pouring rain? yeah, exactly. but oh well it was fun anyway. THAT'S IT. GOODBYE.
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